Tautology

My indigestion my fear my dream are synonym or tautology. The almighty Self, I wish to supercede but I am into a  sequence that is lasting entire life. Indigested dream causes love, then fear, and that causes permanent memory. I cannot forget until I digest my memory fear love indigestion in the reverse order. I love to write in first person. Naseeruddin is my name. I am in a hotel for last few days. My house got flooded with sewerage blockage. Despite my inability to move I tried to clear the blockage and then moved out into a hotel with my family. My family returned home, cleared the flooded basement and stayed back to help servicemen. Basement appliances need repair. My health condition needs care of three doctors and three therapists. I waited to be functional and not become further excited. I wish to digest my indigestion. I need my system to calm down. The word is Ram in Sanskrit. With billion utterances of Ram calmed down the agitation of Valmiki but I am an ordinary self wh...

"Where can I get some reading materials for my friend? He is in a hospital." The friend asked the book seller. "Go down the aisle three left shelves, religious books are there." "No, he is recovering!" There is no cause for meditation unless is sick. Thy name is fear. There is no need for meditation unless one is afraid. They are not friends but enemies. Very few weeks to find and seek permanent separation the in separable pair. I do not wish to meditate ever in my life. I am looking for a bride young beautiful and loving. I have related about a social media internet giant removed all my blogs saying that is against general belief. They are correct even though I was not any friend of their two billion worldwide society. They found me out from their very big data tables! I write in internet and I am not found out is impossible. The monsters are living god! I am not a pendulum swinging nonstop between fear and meditation. What really is the gravity that my p...

 I have deleted all characters I can recognize in all the fictions biographies and the Vishnu Purana. My world is empty devoid of any characters. I cannot add a dot a dash or a semicolon to my character. I can only stare! I am myself. I am at the center hanging from above upside down. Around me the world of characters spinning with activities. They cannot be changed. Immutable. Earth is the earth with COVID corruption politics and false promises. None nothing is going to change. The sun is going to be hotter lighter darker or colder, its characteristics whatever be them are not going to change. The moon shall remain the same. Changing its size complexion and characters shall remain the same. The milky way is not going to change and all the astronomers of the cosmos are not going to change. They shall be writing their fiction and call them science. They shall not change. The sky is sky shall remain same. The world is not going to change. I am not going to change. I grow older, not f...